Tuesday, May 29, 2012
I can't believe that graduation is over. How I miss graduation! And I cried after my last session of grad ceremony feeling so empty about leaving SP - the place with so much fond memories and the place I see myself growing and maturing.
Now that everything has fallen into place so right for me except for landing a scholarship, I am really thankful to fate that has brought my dream closer to me and for being able to witness the hard work I have put in. I am going to start medical school in this august! I can't believe it T.T so much excitement and anxiety about the path that lies ahead.
Somehow I have gotten all the success that I have desired or perhaps even more than that. I know some people out there probably started questioning why I deserve all these things. This is because in many people's eyes(my lecturers, my colleagues and some friends who are not as close) tend to see me as someone who is only out to have fun, always playing a fool in class, always going out to party with friends and always not serious about doing things. One classmate of mine even told my colleagues that I am someone who don't study hard but still score well. Whereas my colleagues thinks that I don't have time to study since I am working most of the time.
I asked myself on various occasion if there was something wrong about the way I carry myself. I asked my close friend and then he told me that it's just that everyone saw the happy side of me but never the struggles that I have been through. So I guess try not judge a person too soon unless you know the person well. For many people we are just putting on a face - a face that you want people to see. And for me I just want to create a cheerful impression.
Let me be with you forever... ;
Saturday, May 19, 2012
路遥知马力， 日久见人心。
So today after work, I went to meet up with the insurance agent to make the hospital claim. Insurance is such a complicated thing!!! My dad was cheated because the insurance agent told him that the policies for my sisters and I cover for education also. It is kind of crappy because it does not cover for education at all. :(
Its already 4pm by the time I finish everything with the insurance agent. I did some housework the moment I reached home then I felt so lethargic that I fell asleep before starting to work on my scholarship essay. =/ glad that I only slept for an hour then I woke up to continue my work. Why so tired?T.T
Let me be with you forever... ;
Wednesday, May 16, 2012
My life is still too happening in May... T.T
On 3rd of May, I went to the PSA building to give a speech for the 4th HYC PSA Scholarship Ceremony. It was a really good experience and my first time giving a speech for such a ceremony. =) Met Mr Liew who was formerly working in SP but is working as the Deputy Principal of ITE College Central. He shared quite a bit about his daughter who is doctor specializing in anaesthesia. It only further confirmed that life of a doctor is extremely challenging. After the speech, I received a call from my dad that he is going to A&E.
Worried, I rushed down to Tan Tock Seng Hospital's A&E to look for my father. I could still remember the entire incident vividly. I registered my name and went into the A&E room. Inside the A&E department, I saw many patients lying around on their beds (some with bleeding on their head, etc..), I walked around desperately looking for my father but to no avail. All the doctors looked so busy that no one seems to realize that some outsider was wandering around A&E like a lost soul. Then, I spoke to a nurse there who was using a computer and I asked her where is my dad. She told me that my dad was under resuscitation, I was appalled. I prayed that it was nothing serious. Alone at A&E and not being able to see my dad was very scary. I am really grateful that Pearlyn and Xin Yi came down to accompany me even before my mum and sisters arrived.
Dad had hematochezia due to a bleeding stomach.So for the next two days my dad was warded in higher dependency ward. Thank god he got better and he got transferred to a normal ward on the third night =) now he has almost 10 kinds of medication to take =/ Those few days I went in and out of the hospital several times. But I am thankful towards my 'siao on" friends Pearlyn, Xin Yi, Zay Lin, Winston and Shi Ming for coming to the hospital almost everyday to give their moral support.
On 9th May,at 6.59am I learned that I got accepted into NUS Medicine through the online portal. I was thrilled and I thought it was a dream. As I was already on my way to work, I called home and broke the news to my parents but as usual they just sound pretty much like normal - neither sad nor happy.
On 15th May,just yesterday, the Straits Times reporter and photographer visited me a Clementi Polyclinic for the interview.
If you see me nowadays, I look like a zombie with my immune system still trying to fight a 10 day cough.. and probably still counting...
Now time to go for a good jog =) hehe ;p
Let me be with you forever... ;
Friday, April 27, 2012
So many things happened in April that I thought it was crazy!!!
First, the institutional medalists interview came on 4th apr. Went without any expectations but to my surprise they called me up later in the evening and told me that I got the Lee Kuan Yew Award. Then I was asked to get prepared for photoshoot and videoshoot. So exciting!
So a week later I went for the photoshoot and met the rest of the 7 institutional medalists. On contrary to popular belief, all the 8 of are on the irony crazy and wild scholars. We are like minded people who study really hard and also party very hard. So that night we went Kbox and got super drunk till 3am.
The next day I went to work as though nothing has happened. On the evening of 12 apr, I received a call from
NUS Medical School to go for the essay test and interviews on that Saturday and Sunday. I was taken aback because it was so sudden. Like the night before I was still partying=|
I was seriously excited and worried about the interview that I woke up at 5am to prepare. Also went back to school to meet Mdm Mah and Dr Yeo then stayed on school to prepare till 8pm before going off. Over the weekends I woke up at 5am everyday to prepare because I was so nervous I couldn't sleep.
I am really thankful that Desmond actually agreed to accompany my both to the essay test and the interview :)
Once the 2 rounds medicine interviews were over, I went out to sing and party with Alan.Y.
The following Monday went to drink with AY, YT and SK at acid bar. On Wednesday went Kbox with all the other institutional medalists. The following day after drinking I still went back to work and strangely
I still feel the energy to work :)
On 20 apr Friday, I went for MOH pharmacy scholarship interview. I wasn't ben nervous at all. It felt like after I survived the medicine interview no other interviews seems that daunting anymore. The people
In front of me all took around 20 mins for the interview however mine only took 10mins?!I came out feeling that I didn't do well for that interview at all. :(
On Saturday night, AY, SK,YT and I went to woodlands waterfront to chill till like 5am. Super
Chill feeling to pillion on a bike and speed down the road at midnight. I could feel the coldness of the wind against my bare skin.
On the third week which is this week, I self declared a break from the drunkard lifestyle. This entire week I have been just working, renting my graduation robe and visiting my grandma.
Just ytd, I went out with AY to punggol end to chill.
Now I am just waiting for medical school results to be out! =\
Let me be with you forever... ;
Wednesday, March 14, 2012
SO much anxiety boiling within me since dinner with Desmond and Leon. OMG! So much more to do for that application. I should try to calm down I know!Since I always believe in God's will I should just do my best and leave the rest to god!
“ It is not the things we do in life that we regret on our death bed. It is the things we do not. Find your passion and follow it. And if there is anything that I have learned in life, you will not find that passion in things. And you will not find that passion in money. Because the more things and the more money you have, the more you will just look around and use that as the metric — and there will always be someone with more. Your passion must come from the things that fuel you from the inside. That passion will be grounded in people. It will be grounded in the relationships you have with people and what they think of you when your time comes.by Randy Pausch.
I want to work hard for the speech just so as to fight for a chance to put Gayathree's name in! Haha!
Let me be with you forever... ;
Wednesday, March 07, 2012
I miss school!!! Have been working every single day ever since the day after exams. Working is seriously no joke it's taxing both physically and mentally. Yes you get the money that's the good thing. However it felt as if every cent was earned at the expense of your health- no proper breakfast and no proper sleep. But I must say work at the Polyclinic is fulfilling, being able to indirectly provide health care to enhance the years to quality of life. How I wish there is something more to it but I know my capability is self-limited.
Recently got so busy with work and meeting up with friends that I have little time to look at uni application!! Ahhh!! I am trying hard to strike a balance between work and preparing for uni but it's tough. Take for instance ytd, I reached home then I do the laundry, wash the dishes and toilet then poof the entire day gone!! Ahhh!!! Damn scared! The scholarship datelines all coming.
But two pieces of good news came while I am at work and I am thrilled by the opportunities!! Will be working hard on it!!! Never really did anything like that before!=]
Yeah! May the positive forces stay with me and negative thoughts and emotions self destruct!
Let me be with you forever... ;
Thursday, February 23, 2012
Poly is over!!!Finally its all over. I still remember will the clock striked 18.10pm and I dropped my pen, I can't suppress but kept smiling to myself and crazily did the peace sign while the lecturers are still collecting the papers-I was crazily, happily insane!!!
It was such a relief!!!
Then, Gayathree, Sheryl, Charyl, Hua Yin, Huirong, Kat, Xue Yin and I went to Ah Loy Thai for a feast but ordering all the possibly best dishes on the menu!I can't count the number of times I have been to Ah Loy Thai but it has never taste as good as this round's. I mean all the meals there are nice but this was superb.So we hang around till 9pm.
Then I headed to Vivian's place and reached at 10pm. There, Vivian and I was trying to figure out Gena's present. It is 30% done? Will be continuing tml!
Finally I reached home at 12.30am... feeling as hungry as ever...think I have been snacking too frequently at night especially since exams started...
Let me be with you forever... ;
